"I don't know why," you say so casually, not even breaking your step "They say you gain weight with puberty. That's not true. You slimmed right down." I stumble and stare Recalling the hours of exercise Of calculating calories so breathlessly Of forgetting what hunger feels like because it's just the constant state. You don't know about that, but I wonder how you could Not know. I knew you missed it, but I didn't know it was by a mile. By a galaxy.

Eating Disorders don’t: Define who you are Validate you Determine your self-worth Love you for being you See your inner beauty Know why Eating Disorders don’t do any of these?...Because they can’t! BUT...YOU CAN!!!

I hate it here in my textured thighs How the fat crumples up and creates hills and holes When I sit I hate it here in my flabby arms How they aren’t toned unless I flex my non-existing muscles Because of my non-existing urge to exercise I hate it here in my profound stomach That turns into skin-colored waves Whenever I bend over The hate I have for the flaws in my body Do not compare to the hate I have For the chemical imbalance in my head I hate it here in my stupid br

Don’t you dare speak about my confidence, I am nothing like your false gods Or statures made of delicate hay You are influenced by liars online. Don’t you dare speak about my eating habits I am not someone to exhort I may starve or binge myself, But that is no excuse to command me. Don’t you dare speak about my body, I am nothing like your expectations Leave me alone and worry about yourself I may not be healthy, But at least I’m not the fool here.